All of you,

Every single day, I have to cause a big scene with you because my selfishness gets the best out of me. Trying to hold back tears everyday because the only thing I want can't even been with me as much as I wish I want him to. Trying our best to front like everything is okay. Always being in love, asking questions having doubts. Or in this case just me. You aren't just a piece of furniture in my house. You are my house. I call you my home. I know I do things that make you want to scream. I know I've hurt you more than just a dozen times. I know my anger gets out of control. I know I'm not the best girlfriend I've bragged to be. I'm sorry for all the things I've said without thinking. I'm sorry for all the selfish lines that touch my lips. I'm sorry for all the doubts that stress my mind. And most of all, I'm sorry for always trying to make you do things, that you are forced to do because you know you love me. And I know I love you too. Everyday, I know I try to make the best of it. Everytime I see you, time flys by so fast. My heart starts to beat faster and slower then it just stops. For us, Love brings us miracles that everyday our surprise visits makes us stronger and stronger everyday. That, I'm not scared to tell the world I love you. I'm not ashamed to fall in love at Fifteen. When people hear that we "in love", all the support fades and its just us in the end. I know what we have will grow into something we both didn't expect. I miss you so much, that reality to me is just waiting for it to go by. But I want to live my life. I guess I had to separate you and my life, and now today I've realized You have always been in my life, part of my life, my life. You've given me a love that I know we both could define. You've given me faith, to never give up on us and to know we can go through it. Everyday, everyday I just want to break up with you because the distance kills me. Yet when I'm about to say it, its like I've realized theres no point. We're just gonna get better again. All the fighting, all the mishalfs, all the silence. I don't want it anymore. I know it makes us stronger, but we're so young. We're so young and we're in love. And today, watching The Notebook, I've realized I want to spend every second happy and in love with you while we can. Because I know that we want to spend maybe the rest of our lives with just eachother. We don't know that yet. Maybe you do, but I don't. I don't know whats going to happen. And I'm not in a rush to find out. I want to take it slow. not "it", but our love. For it to grow. To grow not something better or stronger, but to grow into us. I know what I want, I tell you I want what I have. And I have you. To the world, I don't need anyone else, I dont want anyone else. There is no anyone else. I've found him. Jansen Camara Abellera, and Im positive. Contradict me, tell me I'm wrong, No. Your wrong. I love you Jansen Camara Abellera, with all my heart and soul and so much more. My left, my right, my air, my smile, my heart, my soul, my spirit, my faith, my eyes, my promise, my sunsetsetsetset, my peeekachu, my sweetheart, so much more. So much more. And you, your everything that makes me a better person. Your my Yang. Your my shootingstar, who I've been wishing on for so long. And now I've realized, the only thing I should be wishing is for me to meet you in the stars. I love you Jansen, always.

I don't want half of you, part of you, I want all of you.