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Today, was a very fun day. it was basically a semi trojan olympics but it was within our academy grades. Sophomore we could of done better, our seniors were just too damn boss. Our Juniors, they killed at tug o war all men what do you expect. Seniors they were very aggressive. but in the end, we won with our dance. Yes our dance, though it wasn't on beat and yeah it was pretty messy but we were very organized, cute, different, and something no else expected. Especialy our "threats" that made them think we were cheering for them. i guess they weren't so smart. The day was wonderful, it made me smile and happy. I'm not so scared to go out there and break anymore, so stop pushing me in. I'll go when you least expect it. I love the dance, I love the beginning. it was not sexual, it was art. We kicked it up with forever, we added harmony to the girls, we got the Awww oh my goshes during the boys, we got the hey we did that last year from Kiss kiss, we got the i love yous on I love you, we got the OHHHH's in the A Millie, and in the end.... We got the cheers for our bboys, and I got the last break right on point, I got the " didn't know she could do that" & i love a bgirl hit. Breakdancing, I explain what it meant to me to Steven, and he realized how much I do love it. Bgirl, just watch i'm going to get better. When we got back, i was so tired. my feet hurt, my head was in pain, my stomach felt like it was eating myself. Fifth period, we had SSR, mr.bautista let us sleep, like i didn't sleep in the class in the first place, then after SSR he still let us continue to sleep to chill. 6th period, wasn't really anything, did some studying for chemistry realized that it is pretty easy and I can do it. Also, i got to eat in that class, especially eating Senora Romero's food. After school, just chilled at the tables, pictures, random pictures, then we went to go breakdance at the soccerfield. the other bboys came and my Bgirl, Maureen (mom). yeah still call her mom, so what. My inverts are getting better, My hollow? or holla or maureen's way HALO back, comes at chance. I made up a new one, though it is the "Allen Vu's" stunts. Backhandsprang, though we all tried doing it together, I was the only one that still is scared. I can back walk over and over again and not get a back handsprang.... Sad, but I'm going to get it. And Chris, bbyyy (= HAH, me and him are going to open a Salon together when we're older. Thats right.

All day missing you, though I did not text you as much as i always did. I was busy today, I was enjoying my time. Today, I realized I could be happy with or without you, but I really did miss you. My tears didn't fall today, but my heart did, and it sprang back up when you said "tuesday or wednesday". Praying that my high hopes don't crush me once more. I love you so much, I want to be with you more than anything in the world. I cannot wait to see you. I really want to be with you I really do. Its like what you said, life sucks because the one I love is just so far away. But... Life gets so much better as our limitations begin to fade. I miss you so much, I swear I would drive out just to see you. but thats pulling an "A-D". All day I've been thinking of the "plan" for friday. (= Hopefully it follows through. I think it will, my mom is clueless. And all she wants is for me to get out of the house, so I won't be alone. Luckily she's not so close to my other cousin. Its getting harder, as we keep this. I wish I could drive now. I love you Jansen. I know we may not be so close to eachother, but i know that in my heart, your never to far away. I know that we've only been together for a while.But now that we settled this and know what we want, forever is just around the corner. I don't want my family thinking its puppy love and oh you guys are just gonna end up breaking up. I know that we wont. I know that everyday, I'm here wishing you were with me, beside me. Everything thats left of me, everything that I am, I know that I'd put so much more effort to making you smile, to me shaping into the one you'll end up in the end. Its funny, I had these thoughts a long time ago. And I'm so happy... Its you. I know that we have many years, so many fishes, so many stars. But I want to spend my years with you, I only love a fish named jansen, and your my shooting star. The only star I see, and I know that we're going to be together in the end. Just stay with me.

I ♥ FS