Worth the Fight

This morning was the hardest morning I've ever had. There was nothing else I wanted, nothing else I cared about but you. Here you were just letting me let go, letting me say good-bye. And you just sitting there quietly listening like I was just some echo that when through your left ear and out the right. I felt like I was silenced one more time. My words began to speak for itself. "I think we should just be friends." My heart sank, I wish I could take it back. You already responded. My mind was going crazy. My tone raised up. I couldn't let this feeling go no longer, so I continued on my lies of not needing you. I began to say things I didn't mean. Then it let do our break up. My tears began to fall. I knew it was my fault. Yet, my voice was still steady. I couldn't breathe, I had to look for my inhaler. My eyes rolled back behind my head. My heart was broken once again. My body lost its warmth. And my cheeks were moist. I hung up on purpose a couple of times. I didn't know what to say. Then we talked about it. Tried fixing it. It felt like we didn't even break up just another fight. But I was right, I don't want to get hurt again. I didn't want you to break my heart one more time. I couldn't handle it. Yet, I felt like an ass hole, because I told you i'd go through so much more just to be with you, just for you to stay. So, honest blog. I am here. I am willing to go through more. I can stand the fight. You are worth the fight. I'm not going to back down. I am going to stay with you. I want us to get better. Our promises are my goals. You are everything to me. I don't need anything from you, because I do truly love you. I want what I have. And I already have you. My mind is made up. You>The world. No one else. I'm positive. My mood ring is yours to change. I can smile now, I'm seriously happy. I'm ultra happy. And its because I have you. Treat me better, that what I asked. But I don't want anything else more. I love you Jansen.

Anyone Else.