Oh Rats !

Woke up this morning, tried waking up i couldn't get up off of my bed. I reached for the light boy did it shine. I kept on telling myself in the next 2 minutes, five, ten that I'd get up. But unfortunately my body had a mind of its own =/ Well finally started getting ready around 6 thirty. All i did was get ready change and everything. So I ate while walking to mejor amigo, Richard's Casa. Got to school, listened to "My Dick" HAH. I swear i loved that song especially watching everyone laugh at me, love it. Then first period came, my boyfriend called me while I was talking to Ramzi, Ramzi he's a tall white cutie, the love of my life's boyfriend (= Michelle (Catch her on Myspace, she's my scenegirl). Well Texing Melanie, all day. I need to start reading the book I haven't even read the introduction i know. Well I'm here in Computer Apps. We have a sub, Ms. Edwards. I had a sub in 3rd period it was the bird lady with the hair? HAH, yeah I know hilarious. During third the dumb guys threw a rat next to my foot and i lke stepped on it and it squeaked so i screamed =/ Yeah I know, what I'm a girl.

All Day, I've been hearing that Homecoming Guest Passes are due tomorrow. And if thats the case, then I'm not going to homecoming. I'm not. I won't go with anyone else. I'll settle for my boys but really I just don't want to go with anyone else besides my boyfriend. I don't think its right, I know its just Homecoming. But its gonna be my first homecoming, and now I'm stressing over a day thats suppose to make my boyfriend happy to see his friends, and a day that I'm gonna get to finally spend with my boyfriend. It just sucks, I feel all like hot and on the hot seat. I'm so heated that I'm shaking.

Last night on aim we talked about how hard it is for us to be with eachother. Also believing we're strong enough to keep on being a long distance relationship. But its hard answering the questions oh why doesn't he visit you?-because he can't. Why can't you visit him?-because I can't, I don't drive. Why dont you guys talk anymore?-Because we're busy. How are you guys?-it depends. Its getting harder, as we get deeper. Next week, our one month. yet. I don't even know if I'm gonna be able to see you =/ I know I get to see you on the tenth, but its our anniversary? Who knows =/ I wish I can drive. It was hard talking to you about what it would be like if you went to my school or if I went to yours. Trying to hold back my tears, because I know that it could never happen. I can't be selfish and ask something like that, because I love you soo much to make you happy. And I know that I'm not theonly happiness you have. But I'm still here. Im still going to love you. And i'm still yours, forever. You telling me that you love me and its just you and I. I know that we're gonna be forever no matter what. I love you so much. I'd go out of my way just to be there for you if anything. I know its hard, I know it sucks. But we're still here. We're still together. And we know its going to stay that way. I love you Jansen,Only One.

If only.